The weather here in Fairbanks compared to Los Angeles is wild! I love it don’t get me wrong - but it is such a big change for me. Not to mention that the FRG meeting last week made me deathly afraid of driving in the snow during Winter. I have been working around the clock - non stop to get all the open orders out. I just can’t wait for tomorrow when Corrado is back under the same roof as me for a while and we get to cuddle and kiss and all that good shit. Sometimes I think I should get out and meet more people - but then again, I am so dang busy!
I finally made it to Fairbanks last night and I am so happy! The weather is fresh and perfect and my husband is amazing and our place is amazing and my dog is happy and I am happy! We leave right behind base and it’s super close but we are still a little secluded and it’s nice and comfy and I am so friggen happy!!!
Another ones of those….I can’t help but miss the fuck out of my husband - kind of days. It’s been almost a month since I have seen him - and trust me ladies I ain’t the one to normally complain about that shit, but he was deployed for one year and just got back 3 months ago and I have seen him twice since then- me being in California while he was gone and him being in Alaska has just really fucked shit up. I miss him, his taste, his scent, his voice, his touch, everything. I cannot wait to just be up there already. I hate how I have two weeks (and one day!) left - so much to get done - but no idea where to begin. I have been so busy with my clothing business that I haven’t made any time for myself because I hate slowing down and just taking a breather. I am not complaining about that part. I really could not be more blessed in life actually. I feel so lucky and my heart feels so raw with love for my life that it sometimes turns into depression. I put the hypothesis together that when life is going fine and I have nothing to worry about - I make something to worry about because I don’t realize that life is just..supposed to happen..,I am just supposed to exist. I struggle against the current when all I really need to do is float down….